18 !!

Take a walk with me,
where experience is seeded and vision grows.
Take a walk with me,
where inspiration is fed and passion flows.
I long for the moment 
When I show you what’s behind.
Take a walk with me
in the garden of my mind.

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own..........

You can't apologize
For something you never did
And staring at his photography
It's not going to let you forget
The sky opened up and you fell in
Looking for answers
To questions you don't even understand

In my dreams I'm dying all the time
As I wake its kaleidoscopic mind
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to lie
So this is goodbye
This is goodbye

Tell the truth you never wanted me
Tell me

In my dreams I'm jealous all the time
As I wake I'm going out of my mind
Going out of my mind

Each time I see a crowd of people
Just like a fool I stop and stare
It's really not the proper thing to do
But maybe you'll be there

I go out walking after midnight

Along the lonely thoroughfare
It's not the time or place
To look for you
But maybe you'll be there

You said your arms would always hold me

You said you lips were mine alone to kiss
Now after all those things you told me
How can it end like this

Someday if all my prayers are answered

I'll hear a footstep on the stair
With anxious heart
I'll hurry to the door
And maybe you'll
Be there

Just before our love got lost you said,
"I am as constant as a northern star.."
And I said, "Constantly in the darkness"

A ray of light
of the golden red sun
Breaks the cold and bitter night
I repeat
the unspoken words
that were not meant to be
Drowning myself
in infinite sadness
and melancholy
the words,
written on a line
that you will be mine
And intense will be love
that rises above
as a ray of light
breaks the bitter night
...

It's like a poison in my brain
It's like a fog that blurs the sane
It's like a vine you can't untangle
I'm freakin' out

When you feel that way again
You have to stop your thinking
And think of what you're here for
And let the rest of your feelings go

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are
You and me - I can see us dying

are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
       ~ Don't speak - no doubt. 

All the things you said to me today
Changed my perspective in every way
Then things come to mean
To much to me

The love you can't have
Last the longest
Feels the strongest
And hurts the most

I left the home of a lifetime, and even now I'd have to walk the same line.. Knowing the road ahead will close. I wish I'd stayed when you asked me.. but I was so young and carefree. Not knowing that the road ahead could close.

I'm tired of talking to an empty space..
of silences keeping me awake

My top artists!

Love, I feel my heart could beat forever
Kiss, when it's slow with tenderness
Touch, when we're making love it's heaven
Time, girl with you, there's only bliss

So lovely was the loneliness....

My eyes burn
from these tears
You think you'd learn
over these years
Good things won't last forever...

I went for a walk through the empty streets
In the dead of night while the city sleeps
Trying to catch my thoughts under the stillness of the sky

You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended, you could be the one I'll always love..
I'll be there as soon as I can but I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before!

The stillness in your eyes
Convinces me that I
I don't know a thing
And I been around the world and I've
Tasted all the wines
A half a billion times
Came sickened to your shores
You show me what this life is for

'How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard'

You and I will meet again
When we're least expecting it
One day in some far off place
I will recognize your face
I won't say goodbye my friend
For you and I will meet again

~Tom Petty

"One day I realized that sadness is just another word for not enough coffee...."

Suddenly my eyes are open,
Everything comes into focus, oh,
We are all illuminated,
Lights are shining on our faces, blinding

Let your freckles be periods and my scars the alphabet.

Our skin together is the most beautiful thing I have ever read.

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath
    ~ Coldplay - Amsterdam.

My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven where
Some screams have gone?
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough to get us there?


~ Tori Amos

In fear we lived
Through ages of time
In the bleak the morning awoke
Embraced the glorious night

And yet as I see your face
Paler than the snow
The roses of damask
The beauty and the gloss

Your soul, I still feel the morning
Kissed the heart of gold
Silver on your lips
Lost in the galleries of yore

As I would feed your hatred
Towards my human soul
I would die for your glance
As I want to live

And I've never seen so many exits
Never beheld so many doors
Now that I lay in chains
Just dream of the escape

In the labyrinth of sorrow
Where love the silence lost
You just walk away
Leave me behind


~ Labyrinth of Sorrow

  




Watching the days burning out like a cigarette,
Just a few drags to go.
You built me up
And you broke me down,
Somehow.

I'd love to kill you with a glance
I'd like to put you in a trance
I'd like to drug you with my scent
And use you in the moment

Silence, Emptiness, and Confusion

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.





Run to the water, and find me there.. Burnt to the core but not broken.

We'll cut through the madness of these streets below the moon.

These streets below the moon...



Innocent, they swim.. I tell them 'no' ..

They just dive right in, but do they know?

It's a long way down when you're alone, and there's no air or sound..
Down below the surface

Close your eyes and try to sleep now, close your eyes and try to dream.. Clear your mind and do your best..
To try and wash the palette clean.

We can't begin to know it, how much we really care. I hear your voice inside me.. I see your face everywhere ....

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone
Alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

The Cure - Just like heaven.

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

I'll dream of you again..

"I spent last night dreaming of your eyes
But your hair kept getting in the way
Your lips dropped in to tell me how you'd been
But when I tried to kiss them
My pillow told me I missed them

Your voice dropped by and sang a lullaby
And it was then I knew just what to do
I'd fall asleep and then
I'd dream of you again..."

~ Harry Connick Jr.

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable
All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm
Enjoy the silence.

- depeche mode

Freedom is only a hallucination.. that waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream...

Where the sidewalk ends.

There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
to cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.

Shel Silverstein.